I have just completed a whole entry specifically on what happened last night. And after venting out, I deleted everything and decided to just keep everything to myself.
I’ve always been an open book. Even Joper said I can’t keep my own secret to myself. But for some reasons, this time, I just don’t think its a good idea if I’ll have my thoughts published.
Sometimes, its just so hard to tell anybody what you feel and make them understand the intensity like the way you actually feel it. Everybody thinks I’m a big drama queen. That I make my own miseries. That I always look for complications to spice up my life. It is as if I don’t have the rights to feel hurt or depressed. And I’ve always convinced myself that they are right…
Sigh… I really don’t feel like talking to anyone now. It’s even harder to say it in writing. Not even here… For once, I want to be alone…
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